I stood with toothbrush in hand, looking in the bathroom mirror, as I had every morning of my life. But this morning was different. The woman staring back at me had no future, no plan, no hope. She couldn’t help me brush my teeth, let alone give me life’s answers. In her eyes I saw the woman she had been, not the woman she could become. Staring in the bathroom mirror looking for answers, I found none.
I stared in the mirror for so long that the toothpaste became too hard to use. Much like my life had become too hard to go on.
What I didn’t know at the time was that the image in the mirror was but a poor reflection of myself.
My deepest need to find myself could not be satisfied looking in the mirror, because we aren’t created to find our identity in ourselves, we are created to find our identity in God. There was no need to look in the mirror and ask, “Who am I?” but rather gaze into the eyes of God to find “Who I am.”
Each of us shares the same need, to know and be known. God created our divinely human hearts with the capacity to respond to His love. We wander through life searching for ourselves when God has been watching and waiting for us all along. Scripture tells us in Isaiah that God’s light comes to “open eyes that are blind, to free captives from prison, and to release from the dungeon those who sit in darkness.”
When we look beyond ourselves we find ourselves.
Even though it has been many years since God delivered me from myself, every time I brush my teeth, I am gently reminded of who I am without Christ and who I can be with Him.
Oh, what a blessing.
From my heart to yours,